Wednesday, November 30, 2011

When you have two days off and nothing to do...

I did none of the things that I said I was going to do...

I got some x-mas shopping done because I will be home for the first time in quite a few years for xmas.  So yes, it is about time to amp up the consumerism and buy some things... My gifts tend to go one of two ways... either very thoughtful and well considered or silly gag gifts.  Or sometimes a bit of both.  Those of you who have received gifts from me know that right?

Anyway I did a bit of that and then I went into Goodwill and found an awesome cozy sweater.... It's one of my favorite colors... cross between blue and purple... and it's totally not flattering.  It's like a grandpa sweater.  Here!  I found it for you!

And I haven't been feeling as awesome as normal lately so for the bulk of today I sat in this, with leggings and watched movies and worked on a few projects.  I've been having some weird health things lately that just make me feel kind of lousy.  
So I feel a bit guilty for not taking advantage of the day but sometimes you need an inside cozy day right?  And that's allowed in this girl's world.

More interesting things to come soon I hope.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Happy Turkey Day... ish

Hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving, well at least those of you who celebrated.  Mine?  Mine was excellent.  My first Thanksgiving on American soil in 8 years!  It was lovely.  I drove about an hour and a half north to be with some family who was down visiting from Seattle.  So nice to see them and spend the day with lovely people and the most food I have seen on one table in perhaps my entire life?!

Things here are still going.  I have off two days in a row this wee which is rare and kind of amazing.  So I am trying to decide what to do.  Should I drive 3 hours north and visit my brother?  Or should I stay and continue to explore San Francisco?  I haven't been taking enough pictures!  I need a photo day for sure!!!

There is this amazing shop in the Mission that's also a writing center.  Anyway, it was founded by Dave Eggers.   Have you read his stuff?  If not, check it out its awesome.  Anyway... so this shop.  It's a pirate shop.  Everything pirate.  But the way its done is really beautiful.  They also have an awesome fish tank.

And they sell things that make good stocking stuffers and cute gifts like beard extensions and this:

Anyway.  I might hang out around the Mission and then head up to visit the next day.... I just can't decide.  So much to think about so much to do.

Thanks for the thoughts!  Yes, I am doing ok.  I don't know if I will ever truly make it in this lifestyle.  But I am so glad to be in SF and I can't wait to go to London!  After that.... we will see!



Monday, November 21, 2011

Music Sunday!!!

Songs  I am loving:

She is amazing.  And look at those lips!!!  Crazy talk!  But this is seriously pretty. 

Made of awesome!  Funny and a great story teller. And yes, around 2 minutes he rhymes pocket with vomit. 

Seriously.... awesome sauce. I like things with a pinch of humor and this band has it.

Tomorrow is my day off. I will update then.

I've been alright. Downloading music like the above and bundled up in scarves and music and paintings. Solitary life is alright for now... as long as I don't run out of music, paint, coffee.

Missing you all!



Friday, November 18, 2011

Oh dear!

I find myself in a predicament where I said I would update tomorrow… and tomorrow slipped through my fingers and is now yesterday. So before I go to bed… and even though I don’t really want to… I will I will I will. But I have to make it quick! I’m very tired and I have to start work at 9 tomorrow!! But listen, tomorrow… well actually today? I finish work early so I will make a proper posting of news and plans and awesomeness. Promise… Real Time. And you know I NEVER joke about real time.

OK so quickly. Things continue to be ok. And yes, just ok. Which I find endlessly frustrating…. I am working on it. I’m also having some doubts about my actual job. About my abilities here. Trying to work that all out in my head… Have I ever told you that my head is a kind of weird place? Well it is.

Work is work though…. And at the moment I feel overworked! Things I have done this week:

Worked too many hours for me to say publically and not feel judged about.

Slept two few hours for me to say publically without being judged. (I think we’re in the less than 20 for the week…. Yikes!) I get these random bouts of insomnia sometimes and they drive me absolutely insane!

I don’t want to go into too many details before I know the answers for sure but there might be a few changes in the next two weeks which could be rather large. I’ll let you know as soon as I know for sure.

And now… for sleep time.



Thursday, November 17, 2011

Take three minutes please!!

And watch one of these. Awesomeness. And I Love them. Will update tomorrow. I'm sorry. xoxo

Friday, November 11, 2011


This is incredibly isolating...  It's so weird.  It's not a bad thing.... it's just a thing. 

Lots of drawing... lots of painting.  Lots of watching.....

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Things seen this week:

1. Lots of pretensions at the oakland art murmur.

2. A dive bar fully stocked with barbies.  Not a few barbies... lots and lots of barbies.  All Holiday editions of barbies, still in their boxes.  They adorned every wall space, every nook and cranny.

3. Burlesque dancing set to the tune of schoolhouse rock.  Yes as in the following video:

But with girls in g-strings.

4. A piano bar, but with live karaoke.  OH wait add the fact that it was industry night so anyone who fancies themselves a musical theater kid was there with book in hand to jazz hand away.  And THEN the cast of hair came in, and one guy (who used to be on that show queer eye for the straight guy... yeah remember that) sang a song from RENT.  Ever wondered what happened to that guy?  Yeah he's touring around doing regional musical theater. This guy:
It was fun.... for a minute.  But there were entirely too many 'big' personalities in that room at one time. 

5. Too many coffee places to count in the quest to find my favorite.  It might have happened.... I think I found it.

6. Books books books.  Right now reading Geek Love. Which is a book about circus freaks.  Specifically about a family who wants to breed circus freak children, so while the mom is ovulating she takes heaps of drugs, resulting in a dwarf hunchbacked albino, a boy with flippers instead of arms and legs, a set of conjoined twins... etc.  Too early for me to decide if I like it yet but so far it's interesting.

7. That's about it.  More soon.  I'm ok.  Not comfortable yet.... maybe tomorrow.


Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Eye Spy...

I just had two days off, which was lovely.  I met a few people for brunch at my favorite breakfast spot.  Bowls of coffee?  Gingerbread pancakes?  Yes please!  Then I spent most of the rest of my time walking around the city and getting lost.  Lost in parks, lost in streets, lost in my thoughts, lost in time, lost in culture.  But it was nice. 

I found this this medusa lady, which I thought was halloween worthy!  **funny thing about SF and halloween, it's impossible to tell who is dressed up.

Pumpkins were carved.  Can you guess which one is mine?

Lost in parks, this is a great little one right by my house.  Yummy cafe close by as well so it's pretty tempting to sip coffee and read in the park all day.... basically what I did yesterday.

The view from outside my house while I was on my nighttime run.  Lots of running these days.  It's good.  Being relatively anti social means that I have no excuse not to go running or go work out.  Getting ready for Ecuador.

Off to said yummy coffee place at the moment, I have some time before I start work to read etc.  Then the week begins again.  This week I am learning the show track. 



Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Sorry for the lack of being here...

Hey! Sorry! Things have been very busy here and I am a bit settled and finding my feet. So... perhaps now that I have a bit more of a routine I can get back to writing a bit.

Work is going alright. Crazy crazy crazy long hours. I think we are going to have to stay tuned as to how this whole 'living out of suitcase and moving every 2 months' thing is going to work out for me. I have to admit I am not completely sold on it at the moment, but I haven't given up hope yet! Don't worry!

I have been a little... I don't know lately. Nostalgic? I've been thinking a lot about the past and also wondering and thinking about the future. And yeah, imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia as well. You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.

Sorry, too heavy?

Rest assured, I am fine. It's a bit of a change to live a completely solitary life again. And that's the direction that this feels like its going. People are friendly here but not so much friends. At least not yet. But yes... I am fine. And yes, I miss lots of things. But forward, always! Just waiting for this ball to truly start rolling I guess.

I just can't get used to these Cali blue skies though!  Unreal.  I am so used to waking up in Macau to shades of gray.  It's been a while since I saw that huge open blue thing up there.  It's lovely.

More updates soon I promise.