Hi kids. Let’s talk for a minute, I feel like maybe I have been a bit evasive about what I have been thinking and up to as of late. So how about a real and honest for goodness catch up?
As most of you know for the past three months I have been touring with Totem, a Cirque du Soleil show. We are currently in London. I picked up the tour in San Francisco.
It was and wasn’t a big decision to make the move to this tour. You know me, incredibly vague. Nah, I just mean that I was ready to leave Macau and see something new. So while it was a big change and a big step, it was a little bit of a no brainer at the same time.
That being said, things have not been as awesome here as I would have hoped. I don’t know exactly what it is… it’s just not me. And I am not super passionate about my job. And if I am going to spend 50 hours a week doing anything I feel like I should be passionate about it.
So… it’s time to make plans again! I know so soon! It seems like just yesterday I was planning to come HERE right? And I am not going anywhere for 3 months but in 3 months my contract is up, and I will need to make a decision. So that’s what I have been trying to work on lately, the ability to make that decision which requires me to have options, and to plan them out a little bit…
I don’t know that I want to leave the circus forever. But I think that at the present moment, somewhere there is a better place for me. It has surprised me how much I have missed and craved having a space that is mine. A physical space. To have my bed, my couch, my pillows, my art, hanging from my wall. How needy does that sound>??? My my my… but it turns out that is super important to me. So yeah…. Tomorrow… Options.
Happy Snaps!! Fun with clown noses!